Lols, one week had passed by....I got my pay (which is a miserable amount $279, OMFG, can you believe it, man anyways, who asked me to take a lot leave during June. Haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
So I used my $$ to buy a new spectacle and a bag, which cost almost $200. of course, only left with $79 to spent for this whole month. Hopefully my pitiful bank account will still survive until i get my pay next month. Sigh, must watch my $$ this month.
Its still so late but never mind, I wanna watch world cup final hehe, I bet $10 on Spain, so Spain u can't disappoint me hor!!!!!!
Talk about life, Idk why but I believe that i had grown up, (ahem.....as in being independent financially; no need ask my poor mama for $$. Or else she will nag nag nag like machine guy. I am glad....). A boy who used to sit under the tree and cried whenever he was being bullied had grown up to talk back. But I had this feeling, there's one thing I am lacking in my life. A FATHER. Although my father is still alive but since my parents were divorced and I am now living with mom. Whenever I saw little children and friends being cared and spoiled by their fathers, I wished I was them. I would gaze at them with enviousness. I really envy my little sister, she got dad and her mother who is my step mom by her side, her life is complete. I can see father treasure her a lot, he always compares me and my sister like a golden bowl and a mud bowl. Why I always has to be a mud bowl. He treasures her like a goddess while I was being ignored by him. Whenever mom scolded or nagged at me, I wished father was there to protect me but he wasn't there for me. He is enjoying his life with his family (includes my sister and a caring stepmother). You wanted to cut ties with me, father , but what can i do? Life is so unfair but I had to face with this truth. One day, I will show him that his son whom he often ignored that I am not a mud bowl. I will show him what I am capable of. I will show him I can take care of my mother and let her live in luxury in future. But its only that, I needed father......................
Talk about life, Idk why but I believe that i had grown up, (ahem.....as in being independent financially; no need ask my poor mama for $$. Or else she will nag nag nag like machine guy. I am glad....). A boy who used to sit under the tree and cried whenever he was being bullied had grown up to talk back. But I had this feeling, there's one thing I am lacking in my life. A FATHER. Although my father is still alive but since my parents were divorced and I am now living with mom. Whenever I saw little children and friends being cared and spoiled by their fathers, I wished I was them. I would gaze at them with enviousness. I really envy my little sister, she got dad and her mother who is my step mom by her side, her life is complete. I can see father treasure her a lot, he always compares me and my sister like a golden bowl and a mud bowl. Why I always has to be a mud bowl. He treasures her like a goddess while I was being ignored by him. Whenever mom scolded or nagged at me, I wished father was there to protect me but he wasn't there for me. He is enjoying his life with his family (includes my sister and a caring stepmother). You wanted to cut ties with me, father , but what can i do? Life is so unfair but I had to face with this truth. One day, I will show him that his son whom he often ignored that I am not a mud bowl. I will show him what I am capable of. I will show him I can take care of my mother and let her live in luxury in future. But its only that, I needed father......................
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