Greeting with a hint of Chinese, NI HAO!

Hello all. Sorry about not updating for a while. Anyway, NE HAN (Ni Hao) from Suzhou. Yeap I am in Suzhou right now, for my internship program. I am currently attached to Singapore Aerospace Manufacturing (Suzhou) ( 新宇航空制造（苏州）有限公司) It is a Singaporean company operating in Suzhou. They manufacture parts of airplanes, A320, B737, etc! Sounds cool eh? Yeap. It is! HR boy being attached to Aerospace company, haha, fate or what?

I am currently in Procurement Department ( Yeah, kinda weird that I am not in HR but I will be posted to HR after a month. I am not sure of the reason but eh, I am loving my current department. And I am kind of attached to the current department that I am feeling reluctant to move to HR next month. Haha. Poeple here are nice.

Well, 2 more months to go back home. I might as well make full use of my time in Suzhou. :) 

7 Nostalgic Years

Seven years ago, I set foot in Singapore for the very first time. Bewildered, amazed and confused, I began my life journey in the land of Merlion. Seven years has passed since. Don't be surprised, time flied, people changed, I changed too. 

When I first came here, everything was a new experience for me. Everything was new. It was WOW. My jaws literally dropped when my family brought me around Singapore. I remembered I once chased and scolded by the security for standing at the ATM machine and staring at people making transactions. HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW! HAHAHAHHA. AH, HOW NOSTALGIC.

There was a major transition of life, from rural to urban life. Adapting was not easy. Unable to speak English or Chinese made added more trouble for me. So guys, you can't blame me if I still have problem with grammar or pronunciation. I started speaking English, only seven years ago. Haha, Singlish, I LOVE IT LA! SO FUN TO SPEAK SINGLISH. HEHE, NOW I TALK LIKE A SINGAPOREAN. No one knows I am not a Singaporean unless I tell them. Shiok! 

I am so well integrated into the culture and the life here and I think and speak like a Singaporean. In fact, I see myself as a Singaporean. Of course, not forgetting my origin and my background. I still am a proud Burmese boy. Heh. 

7 seven years ago, I set foot in Singapore. 4 years later, I finished my GCE O Level, and just recently (23rd November 2012) I finished my Diploma in Human Resource Management with Psychology. Haha, not really graduated from Singapore Polytechnic yet but it was a self declared graduation la, not going to school liao. So yeah, off to internship I go next week. Hello Suzhou, please be nice to me for three year yeah. :)

It all happened, made possible thanks to my awesome mother. Love you mom, you are great. <3 p="p">

Let's end it off with a song, You Raise Me Up. :)

That's all folks. Have a good day ahead. 

Signing Off. 

A New Semester

Our dear Polytechnic students should know what today is. Yeah, last day of semester break for most of us. Anyone anticipating for tomorrow? I guess not eh. 6 weeks passed like no one's business, don't you agree.

My last semester, or rather last term (6 weeks) in Singapore Polytechnic. A rather saddening realization this is my last semester in school and I will be graduating not too far from now. 

To be honest, I could not wait to graduate and get it done and over with. Now if you ask me, if possible, I wish I could turn back the time to enjoy every moments I have with my friends in poly life. All the madness, the craziness, the fun and the laughter, oh man, poly life is one of the best few years of life.

What I can say. I do not have the power to control time except making the best out of it. Have to tell myself to enjoy the remaining 6 weeks in school before I am off for attachment. 

Guess what, at this very moment in 2011, I was at Mt Kota Kinabalu with SP-NCC Mt Kinabalu Expedition. Time flies. One year has passed since we set foot on Highest Peak of South East Asia. Memories. 

Took this at this very moment in 2011 from the mountain. Magnificent isn't it.

What did we learn here? Time, it does not wait for anyone to make amendments and changes, it's up to us to make the best out of it and enjoy life to the fullest without any regret.

That's all folk. Have a nice week ahead. 

Signing Off. 

NYAA: We are going GOLD and BEYOND

Imagine yourself walking up the stage, shaking hands with His Excellency, President of Singapore Dr. Tony Tan and having a moment of GLORY, everyone applauding at you. Feel good and recognized, don't you feel so?

That's the reward of completing the prestigious National Youth Achievement Award (NYAA) Gold. Is this the biggest reward for me? NO. My biggest reward is to be able to see the smile of the people I have come across throughout this journey. Needless to say, NYAA Gold Award Presentation Ceremony is one of my biggest event in life. 

“The joy and satisfaction of being able to help someone and seeing them smile and laugh because of you, the feeling is indescribable”.

We feel the happiness within when we were able to help people and being appreciated by them. That was the irreplaceable happiness I experienced along the NYAA journey by serving people and reaching my hand to those in need.

Completing the National Youth Achievement Award with strenuous efforts has been a milestone of my life albeit the journey was no bed of roses.

There were countless tribulations faced along the way. To be honest, I feel like dropping out of course after many events along the journey. Time management, stress, work, project, most importantly have to learn how to tolerate and handle difficult people who posed a serious challenge. However, the passion for learning, thirst for more knowledge, supports and encouragements of my peers, lecturers and student development officers motivated me to move on. I laughed, I cried, I smiled, I frowned, but at the end of the day I know I would survive, thanks to the people who has been there for me.

Through this journey, I have formed invaluable friendships with friends, getting to know people, shaped me into a person of fine character. I get to form many close friendship in fact, my bros sis and my closest friends are the awesome people I met along this journey. I have learned to step out of comfort zone and looked at the world in different perspectives, and learnt not to take all I have for granted. 

I was able to go beyond miles, discovered my passion for putting a smile on everybody and transformed lives when I underwent residential project in Shangri-la (Tibet). I had a life changing moment while serving the villagers of Ringha Valley in Tibet. The little kid from the nursery gave me a hug and a kiss at the cheek. Even though it might be normal for others, I was deeply touched and could not hold my tears to stop rolling down. I felt appreciated; it was worth every effort I had put in. This moment has made me want to help to the less fortunate more than before. Gerald Jampolsky once said, “Through our willingness to help others we can learn to be happy rather than depressed”. It is undeniably true, don't you think so?

The biggest reward for completing this journey was not shaking hand with Mr. President, nor getting recognition from the nation but the seeing the smiles on the people I have met. It worth more than anything to me :) 

To the rest of the Gold award winners, a very hearty congratulations to you too.

NYAA gold, mission accomplished. GAHA (Gold Award Holders' Alumni) here I come. Next Mission, OITP Suzhou, China!

"5 Sections, 1 Goal, 1 Dream, let your dream comes to life." 

Leap Intermediate 2012 Ipoh, Gopeng Malaysia

Lost In Nature (5 Sept to 8 Sept)

Hello guys, thanks for waiting. Haha, anticipating to read about my trip to Gopeng, Ipoh? Anyone? Sorry for the late post, was really busy these few weeks. Working for everyday, LITERALLY EVERYDAY. Anyways, let us start shall we. 

Waking up as early as 500 AM to get ready to leave the house to meeting point at Woodlands train Check Point. Of course, you can't expect to go HEY YO SUP HOW ARE YOU to other people when you meet them for the first time as meeting point right? You need to warm up, get to know them first, am I right? 

Nonetheless, bonds were formed along the way. :) 

The trip begin with a train ride. YEAH MAN, TRAIN RIDE! CHOO CHOO! I was getting excited of course. My first train ride after 10 long years! Who's not excited you tell me?

Train Ride
Well, the train was ok. Really ok. I was kind of disappointed with the train. I was expecting a better train cabin. The interior was really bad. The seats stink and worse, the food was expensive. Worse than train rides in Myanmar I tell you. KTM, PLEASE REFURBISH YOUR TRAINS SOON. I spent about 40 RM in the train, just purely on food. I bet the train food vendor must be loving me a lot. The rest of the journey was awesome because everyone was getting excited. 'Nuff said.

The Camp (Earth Camp)
This I must admit. IT IS SO FAR THE BEST CAMP I EVER BEEN TO. Earth Camp really lives up to its name. The materials they used for bunks were made from recycled material. The toilets and bathrooms were made from recycled materials too. The camp was surrounded by nature. Take a look.

Awesome isn't it?

The mountains behind the camp

The River

The Bunks 

The Food. The meals were SUPERB!

The friendly cat in the camp. I named it SUSHI! No idea why. There were two other cats too. They were shy. :X

Our Banner

The Activities

Well, this camp really was challenging. The activities such as swift water rescue, high element climbing really challenge you mentally and physically. That made us prepared mentally and overcome our own fears. I wish I could show the photos but sadly I did not take the photos and the photographer has yet to upload the photos as well. White water rafting was one hell awesome experience. I miss my 10 RM Kampong Adidas shoes. Haha. Awesome it is, nuff said.

The "Lectures"

I was like, AHHHH! EXAMS JUST OVER-ED. WHY WE HAVE TO LISTENING TO LECTURES. But hey, I WAS PRETTY WRONG. The lectures delivered by Mr Lye, the boss of TAM (The Absorbent Mind) was really effective. I learnt a lot. Really a lot. Refer to my previous post.

And Last but Not Least,  IPOH TOWN!

After about 40 minute journey from Gopeng town, we reached Ipoh town. Kinda reminds me of Kota Kinabalu. Not much to see, probably because it was too late by the time we reach there. I ordered a lot of food. REALLY A LOTTTTTT. 

A LOT, ISN'T IT! AND I TOOK SOME MORE FOOD FROM MY FRIENDS TOO. SINFUL DINNER. BUT HECK!

And went to Tesco shopping mall, well, nothing much. I planned to take a deep shit in the town because I was uncomfortable with the toilets at the camp but the toilets at the shopping mall was, WOAH, WOAH. Nuff said. I decided to take a shit back at the camp instead. 

Back to Reality, Back to Home

Someone told me, "you might not like the place you are visiting for the first time, but when you finally fallen in love with that place, it is time to leave that place". True enough, just as we are having fun and enjoying, the trip has come to an end. Well, it was a beautiful ending. It was fun, Earth Camp. It was worth every cents spent. 

We took a train back to Singapore. Really no more comments on the train ride already bro. 

To those days when we were really "Lost in Nature". 

LEAP INTERMEDIATE IPOH 2012 (SEPT 05-08)

7 Habits of Highly Effective People

Hello readers, how have you been? The last time I appeared here was before my exams I guess? Well, what do yea know, time flies.

So yours truly is enjoying 6 weeks of holidays right now. Or rather "enjoying" it. Let's put it aside, shall we move on.

I was given the privilege to follow Department of Student Development (DSD) Officers, Ms. Hope and Si Man to join Leaps Intermediate Camp at Ipoh Gopeng as a student helper. In a sense, I get to go for free. I feel greatly indebted to DSD. They gave me numerous opportunities to outshine and shape me into a fine leader. DSD is one of the few reasons while I love SP.

It was one of the best or should I say, the best among the best camps I ever been to. I learn many things as a leader, a mentor, and a learner. Through this camp, I realised that I been making lots of mistakes as a counselor, as a listener. No wonder I have been feeling something amiss after having a bros talk or a HTHT (heart to heart talk).

In addition, I admit I love to beat around the bush, as you can see (or observe from my previous posts, I did not get to the point straight), as a form of avoidance, be it good or bad. You can see I have yet to reach the topic, ain't I? Getting irritated, aren't you reader?

To be honest, I realised that my greatest fear is being rejected or being alone. (What's stopping me) That's one of the reason I used to love attention seeking shows because I was really afraid to be alone. I was afraid, to admit my own fears, instead I would avoid them. Now, I am not afraid anymore. Maybe I still did, but bring it on fear. I got friends who are true to me no matter what. Fuck with those friends who did not come back after getting into relationships, even after I took countless initiatives to bring the friendship together again. They don't deserve it anymore. I am not going to initiate anymore. I am tired with being proactive. I am probably avoiding the whole matter but I have done my best.

Alright let's move on with 7 habits. Oh yeah, finally, isn't it. Sorry to make you keep reading my woes.

There is this 7 Great Habits of Highly Effective Teenagers which I would like to share you with. I am not so good with explaining in my words or I am simply lazy typing, so please Google it or get a book from nearest bookstores. Trust me readers, it is really useful.

1) Be Proactive (Take Initiative, it doesn't hurt)
2) Beginning with an END in mind (What is your goal, what you want to achieve? Then work towards your goal)
3) First Things First (Prioritize, don't get distracted)
4) Think Win-Win (Collaboration not confrontation)
5) Seek first to UNDERSTAND, then to be UNDERSTOOD (Try to understand then be understood of the situations, is that right?)
6) Synergy (work together to obtain a result that is not achievable independently)
7) Sharpen your Saw (Balance and renew your sources, energy and health to achieve a long term sustainable goal)

Trust me readers, with these, you will find a new and more meaningful purpose in life. Why are you waiting for? Start practicing them now.

Meanwhile stay in tune, I will be posting my Ipoh Gopeng Trip experience soon. :)

That's all folks. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

Always do what you are afraid to do. -Ralph Waldo Emerson. 

Classic Listener

Since I have pretty much time to spare, why not I share some songs I think soothing to you and I believe you will like it too. I gotta admit I am a loser when it come to music, like I don't know about any new songs, properly my trust in this generation music is not that high. Haha, no offence, I feel I suit better with classic songs. They are better than any music nowadays. But that does not prove I do not listen to the newer songs, I still do listen to them, maybe not all. I listen to the songs which I feel I could connect myself with. Choosy much eh? Haha.

Blah, blah, blah...

Let's cut the craps man. Anyone feeling love is all around you? Ladies and gentlemen, presenting you WWW (Wet Wet Wet), Love is All Around. *A round of applause please* *CLAPS CLAPS CLAPS*

Love is All Around - Wet Wet Wet

I feel it in my fingers

I feel it in my toes

Love is all around me

And so the feeling grows

It's written on the wind

It's everywhere I go, oh yes it is

So if you really love me

Come on and let it show, woh

You know I love you, I always will

My mind's made up by the

way that I feel

there's no beginning,

there'll be no end

'cause on my love you can depend

I see your face before me

as I lay on my bed, um

I kinda get to thinking

of all the things you said, oh yes I did

You gave your promise to me and I

gave mine to you

I need someone beside me

in everything I do, oh yes I do

You know I love you, I always will,

my mind's made up by the

way that I feel

there's no beginning,

there'll be no end

'cause on my love you can depend

Gotta keep it moving

Oh It's written in the wind

oh everywhere I go, yeah, oh well

so if you really love me, love me, love me

come on and let it show, oh

come on and let it show

come on and let it

come on and let it (come and let it show, baby)

come on, come on, come on, come on let it show baby

come on and let it show

come on and let it show, baby

come on and let it show 

That's all from me tonight. Have A great day ahead folks. 

Signing Off. 

NEW FOUND FREEDOM

Oh yea, I am free. Finally free. This time, I call this a real holiday. No project, no exams, no nothing. Yeap, literally nothing. FREEDOM, COME TO PAPA!

Think I need a well deserved rest. After countless nights mugging, endless hours rushing for project, encountering nightmares upon nightmares that I could not finish my projects, here we are, free. 

TGIF, Thank God I'm FREE!

It might sound contradicting but I kinda miss the old lifestyle. There is a feel of sudden loss of purpose and meaning life after the madness over. It kinda feel, erm, empty? Yours truly could not adjust to the new lifestyle yet even though I am screaming and rejoicing for my newly found freedom. Oh the IRONY!

Nevertheless, I am still looking forwards to this holiday and next semester. There are a lot of happenings. NYAA ceremony (damn, have to forgo Laos CIP, wasted man. A huge sacrifice I have to made), Ipoh camp and more activities under the sleeve. CCA, meh, forget it. I am going to live my life to the fullest

HUAT AH! HOLIDAYS, HERE I COME. 

Flightless Bird

Not a big fan of Twilight series but found this song quite enjoyable. Fallen in love with this song the moment I heard it. So soothing and fascinating. Readers, I think you should listen and enjoy this awesome piece of music too. You don't have to be a fan of twilight series to love this lovely melody. Here you go, Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine. :)

I was a quick wet boy

Diving too deep for coins

All of your street light eyes

Wide on my plastic toys

Then when the cops closed the fair

I cut my long baby hair

Stole me a dog-eared map

And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?

Flightless bird

Jealous, weeping

Or lost you?

American mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Nursing my sore blunt tongue

Watching the warm poison rats

Curl through the wide fence cracks

Pissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean

Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?

Flightless bird

Grounded, bleeding

Or lost you?

American mouth

Big pill, stuck going down.

For some formality sake, I do not owe this content. I am just a humble peasant sharing the joy of music to his readers. Mehh! Just shut up and enjoy this music, worth every moment listening. No kidding bro. ^^

Have a great day ahead folks. 

Signing Off.

Procrastination, My Kryptonite

My exam is round the corner and here I am still procrastinating like there is no exams. That's what I dislike about having to start my papers later than other students. I am wasting 70% of my revision times facebook-ing, tweeting, surfing, playing with my new phone. Oh yeah, I changed to a new phone, anyone wanna guess?

I got a LG Optimus 4X HD, I named it Optimus Prime. Cool. Dear Ace, you were one awesome phone I possessed.

AHHH! GOTTA BACK TO THE TRACK. STOP PROCRASTINATING KYAW ZAY LINN!! TIME IS RUNNING OUTTT!!! :(((

Okay, I will start tomorrow, I swear. AAHHHH! I AM SUCH AN IRONY B***ARD!

Reminiscences

HAPPY 47TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

How was your day readers? To our fellow Singaporeans, how was fireworks? Awesome much isn't it? :) 

And the rumors about Mr LKY passing away were false. That was a relief. 

Damn, I missed the fireworks again this year. Supposed to go watch firework but due to some  But look on the bright side, I got to enjoy prata dinner with best friend and my buddy. 

And some catch up times with Deena and Gilbert at Starbucks. That's where the story began.

We just couldn't get enough of secondary school days. I always assumed secondary school days were worst days of my life. But it was proven wrong. When I looked back to those days now, I realised those days were not as bad after all. To put it nicely, it was a unique secondary school life. From a total outcast to forming close friendships with my classmates, that was a miracle hidden within. 

Those days, we were the Legends. Well known for our wittiness, talking back to teachers, making teachers cry, wreaking havoc in Chemistry Lab, to sum it up, 4E8 was quite a unique class. 

You know, our class was the class who polluted the Chemistry with Ammonia gases, break test tubes almost every practical lessons, some joker even admitted taking the U-tube back home, for some keepsake.

From afar, one could hear screams, students hurling vulgarities at each other, some fool (including me) running around the corridor like some retards while the teacher was not around. Some nerds would be studying quietly while some jokers playing soccer in class. The glass panels have to replace almost every month because of some soccer stars in our class. Haha, those days. 

Three years back in 2009, very right after National Day Celebration, there was a chaos, a huge chaos along the corridor where our class was. We literally wreaked havoc in school by splashing water and throwing flour at each other. That flour was meant to be a prop for some "birthday bash". But heck, everyone ended up throwing flour at each other. That was fun. Of course, fun came with consequences too. We have to wash and scrap the dough on the floor along the corridor after all the fun. Our clothes soaking wet by the time we left the school. Oh well, that was one awesome memory. You think I am exaggerating, wait till you see this picture. :) 

Look at the corridor! Haha

Part of 4E8

You have no idea how awesome my class was. And my awesome peeps. Hanging out at Eugene's block void deck after finish studying at library and Mcdonald. Pretending to be some girl from Maris Stella High (THAT WAS A HUGE FAIL BECAUSE WE REALIZED AFTER FEW MONTHS THAT MARIS STELLA WAS GUYS SCHOOL) and disturbed some classmates. It turned out to be a disaster but well it was kinda fun. Oh well :X

The poor librarian Madam Jun had a headache whenever she sees our class appearing at library for free periods. She would be like screaming, shouting us to keep quiet and study. Haha, I miss the heart to heart talk with the librarian.

Quarreling with the teachers was a trademark of our class. Haha. Every teachers would just shake their heads in disappointment. They did not have high expectations for our class. But who give a damn seriously. We did well for Os. And those surprised looks on their faces. Well, they were some awesome teachers in my life. To be honest, I miss my secondary school teachers. Madam Yong, the teacher who made a huge in my life. Mrs Catherine Chan, who lead the lessons with "communist" style and her cold humors. Madam Ruhimah, our petite and adorable PE teacher who always crack jokes. And Madam Wong, our forever 18 years old form teacher. I wish I could travel back to those days. :) 

Staying back until late after school to prepare for National Day celebrations until we were chased out by security guards. And we moved to some neighborhood area to continue decorating. That why we won the most patriotic class. IT WAS WORTH EVERY EFFORT OKAY! :D 4E8 ZHUN BO 4E8 SIA LA 4E8 ZHUN BO!  

Of course, there are more. It would be a shame to leave these memories behind. I will definitely look back at those days again in future, because those memories are too awesome to be forgotten. Don't you agree? 

We have changed. Some for better, some for worse. We chose different paths and walk on those paths. But one day, I am sure, pretty sure, we will chance upon each other again and relive those moments again. Wherever we may be, we were awesome as a whole. 

I just miss those days. 

**On a side note, it was a lovely meetup with Deena and Gilbert, b***hing about those good old days and laughing out loud. Haha, we are so sinful. 

4E8 ZHUN BO! We all looked so different now. 

That's all for the night folks. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off. 

Last picture of the night. 

ITS A NEW MONTH

HAPPY AUGUST EVERYONE! How are you all feeling? Time flies isn't it? Everything seemed like it happened just yesterday. In a blink of eye, its August.

July was a pretty bad month for me, but it was also the month that made me stronger. I am glad, more than in fact, that I managed to pull it out alive. Thank god I made out of it alive, strong and kicking.

Yours truly also look forward to this day. Not because it is a brand new beginning of a new month, but it was because our final year projects aka FYP is going to end today. We are having the final presentation at our clients company, Fuji Xerox Singapore. Can we get a round of applause as well as a cheer of support please? :)

Alright, let's cut the craps. Hope everyone will have a blessed month ahead. It gonna be full of uncertainties ahead. But hey, a word of advice, look forward to the end of the day because you gonna say FUCK YEAH, I SURVIVED ANOTHER DAY, I AM READY FOR MORE!

That's for the night folks. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

HFH 2012

Hello, Ni Hao, Sa Bai Dee, Tashidelek, Sawadeekap. Kamusta, Mingalaba, Namaste, Xin Chao. 

Okay okay, I shall stop being a lame idiot. Yeah, I did something I would never thought of doing, that was shaving for charity. That sounded pretty crazy, didn't it? Yea, I did shave my hair anyway. It was an eye opener for me. I went completely bald.

Yeah, it felt completely strange, you had your hair etched on your head and it was gone the next moment. Feeling weird, very. Don't yea agree reader? 

I did it to support the children with cancer, wanted to show support to them, reaching out to them. But I somehow felt how the actual cancer patients feel. Being completely shaven, the feel of being incomplete and even feeling insecure. Alright, I am sounding exaggerating but hey, it's true isn't it? I could feel it myself too. When I looked at myself in the mirror after shaving my head, I felt strange. Very strange to be exact. I kinda look like a freak, a pervert. Oops! Thank god I managed to adapt to it easily.

And man, that was one of the proudest thing I did in my life. Should any supporters to receive rounds of applause, I believe female participants deserve BETTER AND BIGGER ROUNDS OF APPLAUSE for their IMMEASURABLE COURAGE. It was alright with males going bald as us male Singaporeans are needed to go bald when we serve National Service. So guys going bald was not really a huge deal but still us guys deserve rounds of applause too, am I right? :)

Well, for females, I believe hair is the one of the finest asset every female possessed. And yet, shaving their hair to show their support towards the cancer patients, that was totally WOW! It is indeed a huge deed the female supporters had committed. My hats off to you.

Anyway, shaving head has its benefits too. First of all, it feels good. Am I being a fetish or not I ain't sure, I love touching my head now, it feels damn cool. XD And when the breezes brushed against my head, AHH, HEAVENLY. Haha. 

Yours Truly and Friend before and after shaving :)

Before I end, let me share with you words from a great man, Gerald Jampolsky,

“Through our willingness to help others we can learn to be happy rather than depressed”.

That's for the night folks, have a great day ahead. 

Signing Off.

Saving All My Love For You.

So I saving all my love for you~

One of the best songs in history of Music. It's a must listen song. :)

So I saving all my love, for you~~~ ohhhhh~~

Have a great day folks. And enjoy the video.

Signing Off.

Cranky Old Man

"When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a nursing home in an Australian country town, it was believed that he had nothing left of any value.

Later, when the nurses were going through his meagre possessions, They found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital.

One nurse took her copy to Melbourne. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the Christmas editions of magazines around the country and appearing in mags for Mental Health. A slide presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, poem.

And this old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet. 

What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!

Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you might brush aside without looking at the young soul within. We will all, one day, be there, too!"

May this old gentle man rest in peace. Amen.

Venting Anger

Say, your lecturer asked your friend who just came into the classroom if she is alright and your friend did not respond to the lecturer. So out of courtesy, as well as not wanting to make the lecturer feel embarrassed, plus not wanting the lecturer to have the bad impression of your friend, you have to respond to the lecturer instead.

Me: "She is just tired sir."

And, dear readers, something totally unexpected happened. Something uncaught for. You want to make a guess? Don't bother, I am going to tell you anyway. The friend actually responded something, something I did not want to hear.

"Can you shut the fuck up, you don't know what I been through the whole night."

That was the biggest shock of the day. It was like what the fuck man. What did I do wrong? Come on, readers, I am not usually a petty person. If I disturb my friend and she want to be alone, then she hurled vulgarities which I can understand. 

But this is different scenario, yours truly was trying to help her and yet she did this. Imagine yourself in my shoes, how will you feel? And, I am not a person that will let things off that easy, even though I can be very nice. When I am nice, I can be very nice, but, if the person crossed me off, I can be mean, super nasty mean. Oh, yea, I am mean towards certain friends, in a loving and joking way, especially my best friends and my close friends. Haha.

I decided to get mean, real mean, until my anger subsides, probably. Imagine the your good intention was being .... ah, fuck, I still am angry to mention about it. 

I decided to put in the phrase when ever I talked to her, "OOPS, SORRY, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN THROUGH, SORRY". That was mean of me, but well.

You might say I am being a bad ass over here. But hey, if they never tell us what is going on and just vent the anger on us, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT? 

THEN THEY DON'T WANT TO TELL US WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IS GOING ON, AND THEN VENT THE FUCKING ANGER ON US WHEN WE ARE TRYING TO HELP THEM.  UNLESS I WAS BEING A BAD ASS AND DISTURBING HER, SHE VENT THE ANGER ON ME, I CAN UNDERSTAND. BUT THIS IS A DIFFERENT CASE. FUCKING GRACIOUS! DO YOU THINK IT'S FUCKING FAIR FOR US?

Speak of which, imagine we have to clear her FUCKING RELATIONSHIP MESS she caused a year back. DO YOU THINK IT'S FAIR FOR US READER? Her poor ex still has zero clue on why she dumped him. I felt his pain now man. BECAUSE OF A BRAINLESS, WE HAVE TO GET INVOLVED IN HER UGLY MESS, SUBCONSCIOUSLY. DID SHE EVEN FEEL ANY APOLOGETIC? 

Nah, if she felt apologetic, pigs will fly, I will be scoring perfect scores for all my exams, sun will rise from the west (Dear PMX, sun rises from THE EAST, NOT WEST ;)) and Singapore will have a winter season. Do you have such friends? I bet you do, because the loka (world in Pali) we live in is filled with such people. 

Sorry, readers, for turning you off here. I am ending here, if I don't, I might even spew things I should not say here. Enough with my angst filled post. OOPS, SORRY, YOU BET YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WENT THROUGH DID YEA? ;) HAHAHAHAHH! 

That's all folks. Have a great day ahead. 

P/S: It is my first time making a very obvious post that shooting a person.  

Friday the 13th

OH WOAH! TOMORROW IS FRIDAY THE 13TH!

So what is so special about Friday the 13th? Many people that bad lucks will befall upon them on the day. Is it really the truth or just another old folks' myth.

1111! Woo! Caught 1111 as I am writing. AWESOME MUCH! NOW I AM GONNA HAVE A GREAT DAY AHEAD.

Alright, get back to the topic shall we?

Say, if you are optimistic person, looking every perspectives of life in a positive manner, nothing can bring you down, so why worry? But if you are being a sadist for life, even a slightest matter could make you feel miserable, then you will think that bad luck is gonna befall on you. Trust me dude, you are gonna meet with bad lucks even if it is not Friday the 13th. So, why stay negative and miserable? Life is too short for you to say F**k My Life all the time. So try to look at the world in a positive manner. HAKUNA MATATA!

Smile, and the world smiles with you. Bad lucks will run away from you. Frown, that's your problem, the world does not revolve around you, and you will be cursed all the time. So, smile always :)

So, does everything I saying making any sense? No as usual?? That's alright. Because, I have no idea what to say anymore. Sorry ^^


That's all for the night folks. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

Traveler of the Night

"Can we pretend that 

Airplanes, in the night sky 

Shooting Stars *

I could really use a wish right now 

wish right now, wish right now~"

Did you ever wish that you are travelling inside the plane whenever you see one? I wished, all the time. For all the time I have flied, I was fated to fly with single aisle airplanes. I have never flown with planes beside A320s. So fated with A320s, am I right? :(

Sometimes I wished I could fly with double aisles planes, travel beyond South East Asia region. Never in my life time I have flown with double aisle planes. I didn't really bother whether it is Boeing or Airbus planes. Just let me sit and fly with a bigger plane I would be happy.

Speak of airlines, it is my wish that I can fly with Singapore Airlines, at least once in a life time. I an such a greedy person ain't I? Too many wishes. Anyways, enjoying their legendary services, entertainment on board and awesome food on board, ah, how I wish I could fly with SQ, like right now. For all the time I have traveled with planes, there was never an AVOD on board that I could enjoyed. Really hope we could fly with SQ when we are going to Suzhou for our attachment in December. :( 

So what about other forms of travelling? OH YEAH! Imagine yourself travelling to your destination on a cruise ship. Woah, it feels so shiok just the thought of travelling on a cruise ship. For those who have never cruise before, I recommend you guys to try one day. Cruise ship is like a floating resort on sea. They have many facilities that will keep you occupied throughout the journey. Food, arcade, movie, swimming pool, spa, gym, playground, AHHHHH! I WANT TO GO CRUISE LIKE RIGHT NOW.

What about trains? I LOVE TRAINS! Ever since I was young. I feel more excited when I saw a train than seeing an airplane. It's been a decade since I last traveled by trains. Yea, we do take Mass Rapid Transit (MRT) in Singapore, it's still train, but the shiok-ness is not there. Sitting in the cabin, watch the scenery and drinking a cup of warm coffee while enjoying the music playing in background, oh man, I am such a romantic ass. Haha. I do miss taking train, I really do. I can't wait to go Ipoh Leap Camp with SP, we are going there by train. Woohoo! I miss the CHOO CHOO sound.

Reader, don't you wish you could also travel, like now? Around the world with different transport systems, I am waiting for the day to come in future. :) 

That's all for the night folks. Have a great day ahead everyone.

Signing Off.

Turning On and Off

Imagine if someone turns you on and then left you turned on there, how would you feel? Readers, that's how I felt exactly. 

Let's say if a friend very dear to you told you about his problems, issues and shits he is facing. You know how he is feeling because you went through the same things before. So you wanted to help, as to reduce the amount of shits he facing. Your good intention get rejected. How would you feel? 

So, yours truly being yours truly, get upset and guilty because I couldn't do much to help him. Plus, I see that friend as someone really important you know. I am not sure about that friend but being an easily influenced person by nature, was so affected by the whole problem. Probably the problems he facing is the same things that I went through as a kid, and many bad memories was being materialized in my brain. 

The thought of not being able to help, memories flash back and being rejected to offer a listening ear. The whole damn things resulted me having pretty lousy mood and also annoyed at myself. And my friend was tired, could feel man. I should stop pestering, maybe give people some space. He should rest. But he didn't have to lie to me about wanting to turn in soon because an hour or two later I still see him online. That's what made me feel even sadder. And even more annoyed. At myself or my friend, I did not know. I was confused.

Probably, I should give people some personal space. Ironically, I would still feel sad because I could not help a friend who is so important to me. You know who you are la hor, if you are reading this bro? No offence intended towards you man.

And dear reader, imagine yourself in a situation you are being nice and trying to cheer a friend up. And your friend call you being gay? How would you feel? For me, I was used to being called names but this time round, I felt disturbed. Upset. Offended (just a bit, for 5 minutes). Can you fucking imagine people call you name when you are actually trying to cheer them up? Wouldn't you felt upset as well?

And the other party did not reply to your replies, you would feel even more WTF, am I right to say that? That's what I meant by someone "turning you on" and left. You will be hanging there waiting to "turn you off". In this context, turning you on, I am emphasizing on someone telling you something and then stop replying you while turn you off is like waiting for an answer, reply or explanation.

But still I can't stay mad, upset, or annoyed at him for long. Because, I can't afford to lose a bro man. And if you are thinking of going, "WALAO EH, ZAY LINN, DON'T GAY LA", be ready to accept a sarcastic reply. Haha.

Anyways, you should know if I see you as my bro, you should know how much a bro means to me. Haha, and bitch please, stop calling me gay every time I am trying to be nice. ;)

That's all folk. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

One week of vegetarianism completed

7 days, one week without consuming any meat. It was rather an achievement, for an omnivore person like me.

I have no idea why I went vegetarian. It was a random decision. Sometimes, yours truly tend to imagine a lot. "When we are eating meat, we are also swallowing the animals' pains, sufferings, cry and their feeling too. Animals do have feeling too, and yet they were slaughtered for our consumption. Do they have a right to protest? Sadly, no. Their meat were then created into various delicacies to satisfy our taste buds. It was unfair for them. I seen animals cried and begged for their life to be spared from being slaughtered."

That's the reason why I decided to get a break from consuming meats and go for vegetarian instead, for a week. Also a form of fasting as well as doing some good deed as I have yet to perform any deed of puñña (merit) ever since I came back from my beloved country. So going vegetarian was a way for me to commit the act of giving, dānamayaṃ puññakiriyavatthu.


Hereby I am, sharing my merits gained from my act of giving,with the sentient beings in 31 realms. From as low as realms of hell and pretas to as high as the realms of Brahmas. May the beings in 31 realms received the equal share of my merits. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu /^\


But being a meat lover, first day of being a vegetarian was pretty hard as there was a sudden change of intake of nutrition. From someone consuming meat everyday to a total vegetarian, avoiding meat at all cost, oh boy, that was pretty hard. Especially first day. But subsequent days were much better. Yours truly got used to the feel of being a vegan. And today, I have completed a week of going vegan.

During the week of going vegan, my family and friends tried to test my resolve by luring  me with nice nice food like roasted chicken. They failed. Haha! I was able to resist them and the temptation. But to be honest, I almost gave up on day three and four and back to eating meat. I am surprise I was able to overcome the temptation. Amazing isn't it. :)

Feeling so proud of myself. Shall go vegetarian again in future, frequently until I am able to live without meat. But now, I am sad to say that I am still a meat lover. :( I'm such a contradicting asshole. But hey, I shall consume less and lesser meat. :)

A merit has gained. Sadhu, Sadhu, Sadhu. Buddham Saranam Gachcahmi, Dhaman Saranam Gachcahmi, Sanghan Saranam Gachcahmi. /^\

That's all folks. Have a great day ahead. 

Signing Off. 

P.S: No offence intended towards other religions. Everything written are my views, perspective. My sincere apologies if you do not share my sentiments.

Riding on the Train of Thoughts

Tonight~ We are young~

Maybe not. We are not young anymore. We get older as time flies. Sometimes, I just wished we could rewind the time back to our childhood days. Young, innocent and free from responsibilities. Ah, how I miss those good old days. 

"When we were young, we couldn't wait to grow up so we can see the world. However, as we grew up, we are yearning to go back to childhood again."

Oh, how ironic we can be sometimes. Oh well.

Yours truly grew up in a family dominated by family.Therefore I have to agree with most of people that, I can be very weak, nua, girlish and show emotion easily like women. Well, this is the fact, I can't deny. 

Imagine yourself living in a female dominant family and tell me how it feel like to be brought up by females. Oh, to be honest, my parents divorced when I was about one or two and so my father brought under his custody and then dumped me under grandma's care because he has a family to take care of. He remarried, in fact. My childhood without parents, sad enough. What worse? My aunties were worse than I can imagined. Abused me when the family has low income because they gambled away all the money, not even sparing my savings. When the old man sent me some allowances at the end of every month, my supposed allowances were used to pay off the debts. 

To add salt to the wound, my dad actually threatened me to an orphanage. Not once, not twice but thrice. Can you imagine how hellish it was to have this kind of father? 

I have only my uncle, and my grandma by my side but my uncle, did not have a proper job and my grandma was powerless against them. Poor granny. :(

I was really glad that mom decided to bring me to Singapore to continue my studies. I felt liberated, to be away from them. Father told me if I were to leave the country, I could stop calling him father for the rest of my life. So yea, I actually did severed ties with him. 

I started my life in Singapore 7 years ago. But, after too much of family dramas. I was drifted from family. I am damn scared of the word, family. Till now, I don't think I have a proper family. I feel like I was being kicked here and there. It is much better now of course, but still I could not find a reason to be closed to my family, my aunty, uncle, cousins and mom. Every times I tried to, the nightmares would occur again. 

My bad childhood was also the reason why I treasured my friends more than anyone. That's why I rather hurt myself than see then upset. I was being too nice, I guess? That's why I was taken advantage of my friendliness most of the time. The people whom I thought they were my closest friends turned out to be assholes. I felt being used. Imagine if a person called you at 5AM, a fucking wee hours in the morning, would you pick up? I did anyway. And after helping people much, what did I get? Thrown in a corner, becoming invisible again. Sad much?

Despite all these, I still have friends who were standing by my sides all these while. Regardless of what happened. They were there throughout my down and happy moments. Without them, I dare not imagine man, what would happen to me. Thanks to these friends, my life has always been awesome, regardless of what happened in the past. 

Yours truly has these two best friends. One girl and one guy. The girl, everyone would know who she is. She is always seen hanging out with me all the time. We would fight, quarrel, scream at each other but still I can rely on that bitch when I needed someone. I just love that girl. Haha. (Y) 

This guy best friend of mine, well, he is an asshole. Sorry bro, but you know I did not mean it this way. I hated him during my secondary school days because of his insensitive comments and insults. But life is full of mysteries as always. He just became one of the people I would hate to lose. He, as a bro, meant a lot to me. We did not talk much, he is still an ass but you know, he is just who he is. That's what make him my best friend.

Actually, like what the girl said, everyone is my best friend. Haha, true enough. Once I feel that someone has made an impact in my life, I would treat him or her as my best friend and would not let the person go. 

So to my remaining buddies, close friends, you guys always have a place in my heart. Don't feel bad just because you were not mention above. You should know that you are as important as the two jokers mentioned above. I would hate to lose you guys too. You guys are like a part of me. :) 

Yea, I could feel a friend would say, "WAH LAU, DON'T GAY LA PLEASE" Nah, I am not being gay bro. Blogging is the only way to tell my stories. Haha, so you can't call me gay just because I am being "gay" like you said. Haha ;)

The story has come to an end. Reader, most of you would definitely go "WTF"? The stores are all over the place. Like no head, no tail, no body. I can't just focus my mind, my mind would travel all over the places. To the past, present or some random places. I think a lot and too much, you would say. Well, that's what I am. :)

Haha, sorry sorry, for the craps written. I shall end, but not without a quote from Sir Albert Einstein. :P

"There are only two way to live your life. One as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is miracle".

Have a great day ahead folks. Good night and good morning. 

Signing Off.

Karma: Cause and Effect

Hello reader, do you believe in Karma? But first of all, do you have any slide idea what is the meaning of Karma.

By definition, Karma is the total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.

Too cheem to understand? Karma is something like, if you did something good, you will be awarded for your good deeds, and if you did something bad, you will be punished for your evil deeds. You will be awarded or be punished for your deeds either in this life or in your future existence. 

I believe Karma applies to every religions in the world. Just that how the followers of different religions see it. 

As a Buddhist, I believe in Karma, the cause and effect. 

I ain't sure this is true or not, sometimes I do believe that I am being rewarded and punished for my past deeds. True story. 

The Story: Cause

When yours truly was still a young boy in Myanmar, mom got me a bread loaf one day. Yeah, I took a bite or do and I was full. I never did like to eat bread. And it is a waste to throw away the bread since it was still fresh and a large portion was uneaten. Then there was this young novice monk who was on his way for daily alms begging. At the moment, I was either out of my mind or I am not sure why, I just donated the remaining loaf to the monk. I swear, it was not intentional. I did not intend to donate my leftover food to him. I just donated the food to the young monk. I did not realize until a moment later and yeah, that was one of the regret of life. 

Consequences: Effect

Because of the good deed, the deed of donating the food to the monk, I enjoying myself with variety of food and never would I have to worry about getting hungry. But, I could not run away from bad karma. I would still be punished. I realised that I would be forced to eat the leftover food every time that damn uncle of mine could not finish or purposely left the portion of the food he do not want to eat. I would deny most of the time but to no avail, I have no say. I could not throw tantrum at him, hurl vulgarities at him because I am depending on him for my living in Singapore. Most of the time, I would have to eat it even though it was unfair. Fearful isn't it?

Well, was it me or I am paying for my Karma? No one really knows, only the higher beings would know. 

"I am the owner of my karma . 

I inherit my karma. 

I am born of my karma. 

I am related to my karma. 

I live supported by my karma. 

Whatever karma I create, whether good or evil, that I shall inherit." 

The Buddha, Anguttara Nikaya V.57 - Upajjhatthana Sutta

Readers, don't ever underestimate the Karma.

Signing Off.