Monday, 6th September 2010. PACC paper. Confidence with my PACC as I finished my revision and thought that I would be able to do well for my paper. Well that was totally utterly different from reality.

               In reality, everything was different, it was the most hardest paper I ever seen, actually though I understand what was going on, well, my mind went blank. Everything has blacked out. I can't think a single shit. I lost 12 marks for Trial Balance, shit, I just couldn't believe that I leave blank for that questions. And I couldn't finish my paper. Guess I lost over 40 marks in total, Couldn't Believe it but well, what has done already been done, I'll just have to accept reality. Haha, I will be happy if I can just pass although I will be utterly disappointed with my paper. Plus, the duration wasn't even enough to finish the paper. I hope Singapore Polytechnic School of Business will take this matter into consideration and make amendment in the timing.
            Today,I was really pissed off with everything. Upset with my paper. To make it worse, my friends kept on shooting at me, calling me fat bitch (oink oink, haha), asking me to fuck off.  Although I usually ignore, today I just couldn't tolerate anything. I totally went emo, and I kept on saying vulgarity and pointing middle fingers to my friends. My sincere apologies to my friends. 

       And today went to take my pay slip with Shawn and Guo Yin aka Aunty :) and guess what, I been underpaid again, this is third time already. I informed my TLs about it and they told me that they will help me check but instead of getting what i deserve, it went worse. Shit! fed up with everything man, Fairprice, you did a good job in taking away my pay. No offense, but i really fed up like mad. 

           Sigh, today wasn't my day. Everything went wrong. I just wasn't in myself. Hoping that i will get some rest and some peace when I reach home but what welcoming me was mother's nagging and my fucked up cousins creating scene to make me look like a villain in their parents' eyes. Sigh! I don't feel like doing anything anymore, lost my mood to study, now feeling like my whole world is upside down. 

           Well.........................life isn't always perfect and life is always full of unfairness. I will just have to endure and move on with my life. I will move on :) hope tomorrow will be a better day for me :)