Imagine if someone turns you on and then left you turned on there, how would you feel? Readers, that's how I felt exactly.
Let's say if a friend very dear to you told you about his problems, issues and shits he is facing. You know how he is feeling because you went through the same things before. So you wanted to help, as to reduce the amount of shits he facing. Your good intention get rejected. How would you feel?
So, yours truly being yours truly, get upset and guilty because I couldn't do much to help him. Plus, I see that friend as someone really important you know. I am not sure about that friend but being an easily influenced person by nature, was so affected by the whole problem. Probably the problems he facing is the same things that I went through as a kid, and many bad memories was being materialized in my brain.
The thought of not being able to help, memories flash back and being rejected to offer a listening ear. The whole damn things resulted me having pretty lousy mood and also annoyed at myself. And my friend was tired, could feel man. I should stop pestering, maybe give people some space. He should rest. But he didn't have to lie to me about wanting to turn in soon because an hour or two later I still see him online. That's what made me feel even sadder. And even more annoyed. At myself or my friend, I did not know. I was confused.
Probably, I should give people some personal space. Ironically, I would still feel sad because I could not help a friend who is so important to me. You know who you are la hor, if you are reading this bro? No offence intended towards you man.
And dear reader, imagine yourself in a situation you are being nice and trying to cheer a friend up. And your friend call you being gay? How would you feel? For me, I was used to being called names but this time round, I felt disturbed. Upset. Offended (just a bit, for 5 minutes). Can you fucking imagine people call you name when you are actually trying to cheer them up? Wouldn't you felt upset as well?
And the other party did not reply to your replies, you would feel even more WTF, am I right to say that? That's what I meant by someone "turning you on" and left. You will be hanging there waiting to "turn you off". In this context, turning you on, I am emphasizing on someone telling you something and then stop replying you while turn you off is like waiting for an answer, reply or explanation.
But still I can't stay mad, upset, or annoyed at him for long. Because, I can't afford to lose a bro man. And if you are thinking of going, "WALAO EH, ZAY LINN, DON'T GAY LA", be ready to accept a sarcastic reply. Haha.
Anyways, you should know if I see you as my bro, you should know how much a bro means to me. Haha, and bitch please, stop calling me gay every time I am trying to be nice. ;)
That's all folk. Have a great day ahead.
Signing Off.
