Tonight~ We are young~
Maybe not. We are not young anymore. We get older as time flies. Sometimes, I just wished we could rewind the time back to our childhood days. Young, innocent and free from responsibilities. Ah, how I miss those good old days.
"When we were young, we couldn't wait to grow up so we can see the world. However, as we grew up, we are yearning to go back to childhood again."
Oh, how ironic we can be sometimes. Oh well.
Yours truly grew up in a family dominated by family.Therefore I have to agree with most of people that, I can be very weak, nua, girlish and show emotion easily like women. Well, this is the fact, I can't deny.
Imagine yourself living in a female dominant family and tell me how it feel like to be brought up by females. Oh, to be honest, my parents divorced when I was about one or two and so my father brought under his custody and then dumped me under grandma's care because he has a family to take care of. He remarried, in fact. My childhood without parents, sad enough. What worse? My aunties were worse than I can imagined. Abused me when the family has low income because they gambled away all the money, not even sparing my savings. When the old man sent me some allowances at the end of every month, my supposed allowances were used to pay off the debts.
To add salt to the wound, my dad actually threatened me to an orphanage. Not once, not twice but thrice. Can you imagine how hellish it was to have this kind of father?
I have only my uncle, and my grandma by my side but my uncle, did not have a proper job and my grandma was powerless against them. Poor granny. :(
I was really glad that mom decided to bring me to Singapore to continue my studies. I felt liberated, to be away from them. Father told me if I were to leave the country, I could stop calling him father for the rest of my life. So yea, I actually did severed ties with him.
I started my life in Singapore 7 years ago. But, after too much of family dramas. I was drifted from family. I am damn scared of the word, family. Till now, I don't think I have a proper family. I feel like I was being kicked here and there. It is much better now of course, but still I could not find a reason to be closed to my family, my aunty, uncle, cousins and mom. Every times I tried to, the nightmares would occur again.
My bad childhood was also the reason why I treasured my friends more than anyone. That's why I rather hurt myself than see then upset. I was being too nice, I guess? That's why I was taken advantage of my friendliness most of the time. The people whom I thought they were my closest friends turned out to be assholes. I felt being used. Imagine if a person called you at 5AM, a fucking wee hours in the morning, would you pick up? I did anyway. And after helping people much, what did I get? Thrown in a corner, becoming invisible again. Sad much?
Despite all these, I still have friends who were standing by my sides all these while. Regardless of what happened. They were there throughout my down and happy moments. Without them, I dare not imagine man, what would happen to me. Thanks to these friends, my life has always been awesome, regardless of what happened in the past.
Yours truly has these two best friends. One girl and one guy. The girl, everyone would know who she is. She is always seen hanging out with me all the time. We would fight, quarrel, scream at each other but still I can rely on that bitch when I needed someone. I just love that girl. Haha. (Y)
This guy best friend of mine, well, he is an asshole. Sorry bro, but you know I did not mean it this way. I hated him during my secondary school days because of his insensitive comments and insults. But life is full of mysteries as always. He just became one of the people I would hate to lose. He, as a bro, meant a lot to me. We did not talk much, he is still an ass but you know, he is just who he is. That's what make him my best friend.
Actually, like what the girl said, everyone is my best friend. Haha, true enough. Once I feel that someone has made an impact in my life, I would treat him or her as my best friend and would not let the person go.
So to my remaining buddies, close friends, you guys always have a place in my heart. Don't feel bad just because you were not mention above. You should know that you are as important as the two jokers mentioned above. I would hate to lose you guys too. You guys are like a part of me. :)
Yea, I could feel a friend would say, "WAH LAU, DON'T GAY LA PLEASE" Nah, I am not being gay bro. Blogging is the only way to tell my stories. Haha, so you can't call me gay just because I am being "gay" like you said. Haha ;)
The story has come to an end. Reader, most of you would definitely go "WTF"? The stores are all over the place. Like no head, no tail, no body. I can't just focus my mind, my mind would travel all over the places. To the past, present or some random places. I think a lot and too much, you would say. Well, that's what I am. :)
Haha, sorry sorry, for the craps written. I shall end, but not without a quote from Sir Albert Einstein. :P
"There are only two way to live your life. One as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is miracle".
Have a great day ahead folks. Good night and good morning.
Signing Off.