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Thursday, January 5, 2012

Friends, and, letting them go from your life

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us." Helen Keller 

Helen Keller, you know who is she, don't you? Yes, she was the great heroine who fought unimaginable challenges hurled at her by life and survived till old age. 

I could agree no more. What she said was totally true. We were so dwelling in the past that we bypass golden opportunities that have been awaiting us.


As for me, I was still believing in someone that I would still be treasured as a friend. And I held on, believing that I would be the friend that he can rely on, the one that would be there for him. But it seems like I am an extra. I wonder did I even get treated as a best friend even though I treated him like one, worship him like a god.  The most simplest way to depict how I feel right now;




Yeah, that's how I feel right now. And that is how I think of you now, pushing your friends to the corner totally forgetting about them when you have a girlfriend. Never took an initiate to ask if your friends were alright even if they are down and sad. Ignoring the friends that always approached you, trying to cheer you up. Am I right, bro? I am sorry if you think this is not the case but you can't blame me for thinking this way. I am a man of conclusions, I sure love to make judgement too, just like how you judged other people.

Just had an talk with a friend, and yeah, she was true. We were always under appreciated, all our efforts were never felt appreciated. It is never paid to put some people before selves, especially those who don't appreciate others. 

Letting go sounds sure easy. But it is hard and hurting. Letting go of someone whom you cared so much (sounds gay much) is not as easy as snapping one's finger. But I too, being a human, be self-centered asshole and should start to erase, parts by parts. That is only the most humane way to do so. Good for both sides, even though I still wishing that we could still maintain the kind of friendship we shared before she started coming into your life. Well, what is the point still holding on and torturing myself with wrong conclusions which ended up growing hatred for you.
Let's get back to Helen Keller's wisdom words, I failed to realize that I don't have one best friend. In fact, I have more. Best friends, bros, sis's, buddies, HTHT partners, often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us. I failed to realize that how much they meant to me also. The friends were there, just that I failed to see that they had been opened doors for me. That's show I gotta treasure them more and move on with my life. Afterall, life was meant to be enjoyed with your beloved ones. And I really appreciate the help that they have lend to me over time and again, listening to my problems, comforting me, trying to lift my spirit up.

Well, here it comes, conclusion. As I am in extreme state of falling into deep slumber, I am not sure whether I am making any sense at all. I have to move on with life. I will survive, I will survive ~ ~ La la la. 
Even though I have moved on, if you ever needed help, you are still welcomed to come find me anytime. Afterall, that's what friends are for. I am sure, pretty sure that you will actually see this post someday, then before going around calling me a retard, weird for posting this kind of post, telling people how disgusted you are with me, or growing hatred towards me, think carefully, have you ever fulfilled your duty as a friend? You didn't, did you?
 
The end~ 

On a side note, congrats to a bro for managing to get into the trip, Awesome Africa. You are so gotta reach the top and bring back the glory and share the glory! :D
And, happy belated independence day Myanmar, I can't wait to come back to you :D See you real soon.

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