HFH 2012

Hello, Ni Hao, Sa Bai Dee, Tashidelek, Sawadeekap. Kamusta, Mingalaba, Namaste, Xin Chao. 

Okay okay, I shall stop being a lame idiot. Yeah, I did something I would never thought of doing, that was shaving for charity. That sounded pretty crazy, didn't it? Yea, I did shave my hair anyway. It was an eye opener for me. I went completely bald.

Yeah, it felt completely strange, you had your hair etched on your head and it was gone the next moment. Feeling weird, very. Don't yea agree reader? 

I did it to support the children with cancer, wanted to show support to them, reaching out to them. But I somehow felt how the actual cancer patients feel. Being completely shaven, the feel of being incomplete and even feeling insecure. Alright, I am sounding exaggerating but hey, it's true isn't it? I could feel it myself too. When I looked at myself in the mirror after shaving my head, I felt strange. Very strange to be exact. I kinda look like a freak, a pervert. Oops! Thank god I managed to adapt to it easily.

And man, that was one of the proudest thing I did in my life. Should any supporters to receive rounds of applause, I believe female participants deserve BETTER AND BIGGER ROUNDS OF APPLAUSE for their IMMEASURABLE COURAGE. It was alright with males going bald as us male Singaporeans are needed to go bald when we serve National Service. So guys going bald was not really a huge deal but still us guys deserve rounds of applause too, am I right? :)

Well, for females, I believe hair is the one of the finest asset every female possessed. And yet, shaving their hair to show their support towards the cancer patients, that was totally WOW! It is indeed a huge deed the female supporters had committed. My hats off to you.

Anyway, shaving head has its benefits too. First of all, it feels good. Am I being a fetish or not I ain't sure, I love touching my head now, it feels damn cool. XD And when the breezes brushed against my head, AHH, HEAVENLY. Haha. 

Yours Truly and Friend before and after shaving :)

Before I end, let me share with you words from a great man, Gerald Jampolsky,

“Through our willingness to help others we can learn to be happy rather than depressed”.

That's for the night folks, have a great day ahead. 

Signing Off.

Saving All My Love For You.

So I saving all my love for you~

One of the best songs in history of Music. It's a must listen song. :)

So I saving all my love, for you~~~ ohhhhh~~

Have a great day folks. And enjoy the video.

Signing Off.

Cranky Old Man

"When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a nursing home in an Australian country town, it was believed that he had nothing left of any value.

Later, when the nurses were going through his meagre possessions, They found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital.

One nurse took her copy to Melbourne. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the Christmas editions of magazines around the country and appearing in mags for Mental Health. A slide presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, poem.

And this old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet. 

What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!

Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you might brush aside without looking at the young soul within. We will all, one day, be there, too!"

May this old gentle man rest in peace. Amen.

Venting Anger

Say, your lecturer asked your friend who just came into the classroom if she is alright and your friend did not respond to the lecturer. So out of courtesy, as well as not wanting to make the lecturer feel embarrassed, plus not wanting the lecturer to have the bad impression of your friend, you have to respond to the lecturer instead.

Me: "She is just tired sir."

And, dear readers, something totally unexpected happened. Something uncaught for. You want to make a guess? Don't bother, I am going to tell you anyway. The friend actually responded something, something I did not want to hear.

"Can you shut the fuck up, you don't know what I been through the whole night."

That was the biggest shock of the day. It was like what the fuck man. What did I do wrong? Come on, readers, I am not usually a petty person. If I disturb my friend and she want to be alone, then she hurled vulgarities which I can understand. 

But this is different scenario, yours truly was trying to help her and yet she did this. Imagine yourself in my shoes, how will you feel? And, I am not a person that will let things off that easy, even though I can be very nice. When I am nice, I can be very nice, but, if the person crossed me off, I can be mean, super nasty mean. Oh, yea, I am mean towards certain friends, in a loving and joking way, especially my best friends and my close friends. Haha.

I decided to get mean, real mean, until my anger subsides, probably. Imagine the your good intention was being .... ah, fuck, I still am angry to mention about it. 

I decided to put in the phrase when ever I talked to her, "OOPS, SORRY, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT YOU BEEN THROUGH, SORRY". That was mean of me, but well.

You might say I am being a bad ass over here. But hey, if they never tell us what is going on and just vent the anger on us, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT? 

THEN THEY DON'T WANT TO TELL US WHAT THE FLYING FUCK IS GOING ON, AND THEN VENT THE FUCKING ANGER ON US WHEN WE ARE TRYING TO HELP THEM.  UNLESS I WAS BEING A BAD ASS AND DISTURBING HER, SHE VENT THE ANGER ON ME, I CAN UNDERSTAND. BUT THIS IS A DIFFERENT CASE. FUCKING GRACIOUS! DO YOU THINK IT'S FUCKING FAIR FOR US?

Speak of which, imagine we have to clear her FUCKING RELATIONSHIP MESS she caused a year back. DO YOU THINK IT'S FAIR FOR US READER? Her poor ex still has zero clue on why she dumped him. I felt his pain now man. BECAUSE OF A BRAINLESS, WE HAVE TO GET INVOLVED IN HER UGLY MESS, SUBCONSCIOUSLY. DID SHE EVEN FEEL ANY APOLOGETIC? 

Nah, if she felt apologetic, pigs will fly, I will be scoring perfect scores for all my exams, sun will rise from the west (Dear PMX, sun rises from THE EAST, NOT WEST ;)) and Singapore will have a winter season. Do you have such friends? I bet you do, because the loka (world in Pali) we live in is filled with such people. 

Sorry, readers, for turning you off here. I am ending here, if I don't, I might even spew things I should not say here. Enough with my angst filled post. OOPS, SORRY, YOU BET YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WENT THROUGH DID YEA? ;) HAHAHAHAHH! 

That's all folks. Have a great day ahead. 

P/S: It is my first time making a very obvious post that shooting a person.  

Friday the 13th

OH WOAH! TOMORROW IS FRIDAY THE 13TH!

So what is so special about Friday the 13th? Many people that bad lucks will befall upon them on the day. Is it really the truth or just another old folks' myth.

1111! Woo! Caught 1111 as I am writing. AWESOME MUCH! NOW I AM GONNA HAVE A GREAT DAY AHEAD.

Alright, get back to the topic shall we?

Say, if you are optimistic person, looking every perspectives of life in a positive manner, nothing can bring you down, so why worry? But if you are being a sadist for life, even a slightest matter could make you feel miserable, then you will think that bad luck is gonna befall on you. Trust me dude, you are gonna meet with bad lucks even if it is not Friday the 13th. So, why stay negative and miserable? Life is too short for you to say F**k My Life all the time. So try to look at the world in a positive manner. HAKUNA MATATA!

Smile, and the world smiles with you. Bad lucks will run away from you. Frown, that's your problem, the world does not revolve around you, and you will be cursed all the time. So, smile always :)

So, does everything I saying making any sense? No as usual?? That's alright. Because, I have no idea what to say anymore. Sorry ^^


That's all for the night folks. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

Traveler of the Night

"Can we pretend that 

Airplanes, in the night sky 

Shooting Stars *

I could really use a wish right now 

wish right now, wish right now~"

Did you ever wish that you are travelling inside the plane whenever you see one? I wished, all the time. For all the time I have flied, I was fated to fly with single aisle airplanes. I have never flown with planes beside A320s. So fated with A320s, am I right? :(

Sometimes I wished I could fly with double aisles planes, travel beyond South East Asia region. Never in my life time I have flown with double aisle planes. I didn't really bother whether it is Boeing or Airbus planes. Just let me sit and fly with a bigger plane I would be happy.

Speak of airlines, it is my wish that I can fly with Singapore Airlines, at least once in a life time. I an such a greedy person ain't I? Too many wishes. Anyways, enjoying their legendary services, entertainment on board and awesome food on board, ah, how I wish I could fly with SQ, like right now. For all the time I have traveled with planes, there was never an AVOD on board that I could enjoyed. Really hope we could fly with SQ when we are going to Suzhou for our attachment in December. :( 

So what about other forms of travelling? OH YEAH! Imagine yourself travelling to your destination on a cruise ship. Woah, it feels so shiok just the thought of travelling on a cruise ship. For those who have never cruise before, I recommend you guys to try one day. Cruise ship is like a floating resort on sea. They have many facilities that will keep you occupied throughout the journey. Food, arcade, movie, swimming pool, spa, gym, playground, AHHHHH! I WANT TO GO CRUISE LIKE RIGHT NOW.

What about trains? I LOVE TRAINS! Ever since I was young. I feel more excited when I saw a train than seeing an airplane. It's been a decade since I last traveled by trains. Yea, we do take Mass Rapid Transit (MRT) in Singapore, it's still train, but the shiok-ness is not there. Sitting in the cabin, watch the scenery and drinking a cup of warm coffee while enjoying the music playing in background, oh man, I am such a romantic ass. Haha. I do miss taking train, I really do. I can't wait to go Ipoh Leap Camp with SP, we are going there by train. Woohoo! I miss the CHOO CHOO sound.

Reader, don't you wish you could also travel, like now? Around the world with different transport systems, I am waiting for the day to come in future. :) 

That's all for the night folks. Have a great day ahead everyone.

Signing Off.

Turning On and Off

Imagine if someone turns you on and then left you turned on there, how would you feel? Readers, that's how I felt exactly. 

Let's say if a friend very dear to you told you about his problems, issues and shits he is facing. You know how he is feeling because you went through the same things before. So you wanted to help, as to reduce the amount of shits he facing. Your good intention get rejected. How would you feel? 

So, yours truly being yours truly, get upset and guilty because I couldn't do much to help him. Plus, I see that friend as someone really important you know. I am not sure about that friend but being an easily influenced person by nature, was so affected by the whole problem. Probably the problems he facing is the same things that I went through as a kid, and many bad memories was being materialized in my brain. 

The thought of not being able to help, memories flash back and being rejected to offer a listening ear. The whole damn things resulted me having pretty lousy mood and also annoyed at myself. And my friend was tired, could feel man. I should stop pestering, maybe give people some space. He should rest. But he didn't have to lie to me about wanting to turn in soon because an hour or two later I still see him online. That's what made me feel even sadder. And even more annoyed. At myself or my friend, I did not know. I was confused.

Probably, I should give people some personal space. Ironically, I would still feel sad because I could not help a friend who is so important to me. You know who you are la hor, if you are reading this bro? No offence intended towards you man.

And dear reader, imagine yourself in a situation you are being nice and trying to cheer a friend up. And your friend call you being gay? How would you feel? For me, I was used to being called names but this time round, I felt disturbed. Upset. Offended (just a bit, for 5 minutes). Can you fucking imagine people call you name when you are actually trying to cheer them up? Wouldn't you felt upset as well?

And the other party did not reply to your replies, you would feel even more WTF, am I right to say that? That's what I meant by someone "turning you on" and left. You will be hanging there waiting to "turn you off". In this context, turning you on, I am emphasizing on someone telling you something and then stop replying you while turn you off is like waiting for an answer, reply or explanation.

But still I can't stay mad, upset, or annoyed at him for long. Because, I can't afford to lose a bro man. And if you are thinking of going, "WALAO EH, ZAY LINN, DON'T GAY LA", be ready to accept a sarcastic reply. Haha.

Anyways, you should know if I see you as my bro, you should know how much a bro means to me. Haha, and bitch please, stop calling me gay every time I am trying to be nice. ;)

That's all folk. Have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

One week of vegetarianism completed

7 days, one week without consuming any meat. It was rather an achievement, for an omnivore person like me.

I have no idea why I went vegetarian. It was a random decision. Sometimes, yours truly tend to imagine a lot. "When we are eating meat, we are also swallowing the animals' pains, sufferings, cry and their feeling too. Animals do have feeling too, and yet they were slaughtered for our consumption. Do they have a right to protest? Sadly, no. Their meat were then created into various delicacies to satisfy our taste buds. It was unfair for them. I seen animals cried and begged for their life to be spared from being slaughtered."

That's the reason why I decided to get a break from consuming meats and go for vegetarian instead, for a week. Also a form of fasting as well as doing some good deed as I have yet to perform any deed of puñña (merit) ever since I came back from my beloved country. So going vegetarian was a way for me to commit the act of giving, dānamayaṃ puññakiriyavatthu.


Hereby I am, sharing my merits gained from my act of giving,with the sentient beings in 31 realms. From as low as realms of hell and pretas to as high as the realms of Brahmas. May the beings in 31 realms received the equal share of my merits. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu /^\


But being a meat lover, first day of being a vegetarian was pretty hard as there was a sudden change of intake of nutrition. From someone consuming meat everyday to a total vegetarian, avoiding meat at all cost, oh boy, that was pretty hard. Especially first day. But subsequent days were much better. Yours truly got used to the feel of being a vegan. And today, I have completed a week of going vegan.

During the week of going vegan, my family and friends tried to test my resolve by luring  me with nice nice food like roasted chicken. They failed. Haha! I was able to resist them and the temptation. But to be honest, I almost gave up on day three and four and back to eating meat. I am surprise I was able to overcome the temptation. Amazing isn't it. :)

Feeling so proud of myself. Shall go vegetarian again in future, frequently until I am able to live without meat. But now, I am sad to say that I am still a meat lover. :( I'm such a contradicting asshole. But hey, I shall consume less and lesser meat. :)

A merit has gained. Sadhu, Sadhu, Sadhu. Buddham Saranam Gachcahmi, Dhaman Saranam Gachcahmi, Sanghan Saranam Gachcahmi. /^\

That's all folks. Have a great day ahead. 

Signing Off. 

P.S: No offence intended towards other religions. Everything written are my views, perspective. My sincere apologies if you do not share my sentiments.

Riding on the Train of Thoughts

Tonight~ We are young~

Maybe not. We are not young anymore. We get older as time flies. Sometimes, I just wished we could rewind the time back to our childhood days. Young, innocent and free from responsibilities. Ah, how I miss those good old days. 

"When we were young, we couldn't wait to grow up so we can see the world. However, as we grew up, we are yearning to go back to childhood again."

Oh, how ironic we can be sometimes. Oh well.

Yours truly grew up in a family dominated by family.Therefore I have to agree with most of people that, I can be very weak, nua, girlish and show emotion easily like women. Well, this is the fact, I can't deny. 

Imagine yourself living in a female dominant family and tell me how it feel like to be brought up by females. Oh, to be honest, my parents divorced when I was about one or two and so my father brought under his custody and then dumped me under grandma's care because he has a family to take care of. He remarried, in fact. My childhood without parents, sad enough. What worse? My aunties were worse than I can imagined. Abused me when the family has low income because they gambled away all the money, not even sparing my savings. When the old man sent me some allowances at the end of every month, my supposed allowances were used to pay off the debts. 

To add salt to the wound, my dad actually threatened me to an orphanage. Not once, not twice but thrice. Can you imagine how hellish it was to have this kind of father? 

I have only my uncle, and my grandma by my side but my uncle, did not have a proper job and my grandma was powerless against them. Poor granny. :(

I was really glad that mom decided to bring me to Singapore to continue my studies. I felt liberated, to be away from them. Father told me if I were to leave the country, I could stop calling him father for the rest of my life. So yea, I actually did severed ties with him. 

I started my life in Singapore 7 years ago. But, after too much of family dramas. I was drifted from family. I am damn scared of the word, family. Till now, I don't think I have a proper family. I feel like I was being kicked here and there. It is much better now of course, but still I could not find a reason to be closed to my family, my aunty, uncle, cousins and mom. Every times I tried to, the nightmares would occur again. 

My bad childhood was also the reason why I treasured my friends more than anyone. That's why I rather hurt myself than see then upset. I was being too nice, I guess? That's why I was taken advantage of my friendliness most of the time. The people whom I thought they were my closest friends turned out to be assholes. I felt being used. Imagine if a person called you at 5AM, a fucking wee hours in the morning, would you pick up? I did anyway. And after helping people much, what did I get? Thrown in a corner, becoming invisible again. Sad much?

Despite all these, I still have friends who were standing by my sides all these while. Regardless of what happened. They were there throughout my down and happy moments. Without them, I dare not imagine man, what would happen to me. Thanks to these friends, my life has always been awesome, regardless of what happened in the past. 

Yours truly has these two best friends. One girl and one guy. The girl, everyone would know who she is. She is always seen hanging out with me all the time. We would fight, quarrel, scream at each other but still I can rely on that bitch when I needed someone. I just love that girl. Haha. (Y) 

This guy best friend of mine, well, he is an asshole. Sorry bro, but you know I did not mean it this way. I hated him during my secondary school days because of his insensitive comments and insults. But life is full of mysteries as always. He just became one of the people I would hate to lose. He, as a bro, meant a lot to me. We did not talk much, he is still an ass but you know, he is just who he is. That's what make him my best friend.

Actually, like what the girl said, everyone is my best friend. Haha, true enough. Once I feel that someone has made an impact in my life, I would treat him or her as my best friend and would not let the person go. 

So to my remaining buddies, close friends, you guys always have a place in my heart. Don't feel bad just because you were not mention above. You should know that you are as important as the two jokers mentioned above. I would hate to lose you guys too. You guys are like a part of me. :) 

Yea, I could feel a friend would say, "WAH LAU, DON'T GAY LA PLEASE" Nah, I am not being gay bro. Blogging is the only way to tell my stories. Haha, so you can't call me gay just because I am being "gay" like you said. Haha ;)

The story has come to an end. Reader, most of you would definitely go "WTF"? The stores are all over the place. Like no head, no tail, no body. I can't just focus my mind, my mind would travel all over the places. To the past, present or some random places. I think a lot and too much, you would say. Well, that's what I am. :)

Haha, sorry sorry, for the craps written. I shall end, but not without a quote from Sir Albert Einstein. :P

"There are only two way to live your life. One as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is miracle".

Have a great day ahead folks. Good night and good morning. 

Signing Off.

Karma: Cause and Effect

Hello reader, do you believe in Karma? But first of all, do you have any slide idea what is the meaning of Karma.

By definition, Karma is the total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.

Too cheem to understand? Karma is something like, if you did something good, you will be awarded for your good deeds, and if you did something bad, you will be punished for your evil deeds. You will be awarded or be punished for your deeds either in this life or in your future existence. 

I believe Karma applies to every religions in the world. Just that how the followers of different religions see it. 

As a Buddhist, I believe in Karma, the cause and effect. 

I ain't sure this is true or not, sometimes I do believe that I am being rewarded and punished for my past deeds. True story. 

The Story: Cause

When yours truly was still a young boy in Myanmar, mom got me a bread loaf one day. Yeah, I took a bite or do and I was full. I never did like to eat bread. And it is a waste to throw away the bread since it was still fresh and a large portion was uneaten. Then there was this young novice monk who was on his way for daily alms begging. At the moment, I was either out of my mind or I am not sure why, I just donated the remaining loaf to the monk. I swear, it was not intentional. I did not intend to donate my leftover food to him. I just donated the food to the young monk. I did not realize until a moment later and yeah, that was one of the regret of life. 

Consequences: Effect

Because of the good deed, the deed of donating the food to the monk, I enjoying myself with variety of food and never would I have to worry about getting hungry. But, I could not run away from bad karma. I would still be punished. I realised that I would be forced to eat the leftover food every time that damn uncle of mine could not finish or purposely left the portion of the food he do not want to eat. I would deny most of the time but to no avail, I have no say. I could not throw tantrum at him, hurl vulgarities at him because I am depending on him for my living in Singapore. Most of the time, I would have to eat it even though it was unfair. Fearful isn't it?

Well, was it me or I am paying for my Karma? No one really knows, only the higher beings would know. 

"I am the owner of my karma . 

I inherit my karma. 

I am born of my karma. 

I am related to my karma. 

I live supported by my karma. 

Whatever karma I create, whether good or evil, that I shall inherit." 

The Buddha, Anguttara Nikaya V.57 - Upajjhatthana Sutta

Readers, don't ever underestimate the Karma.

Signing Off.

Sugar Rush Day

One big pack of peanut butter cup is gone within one morning. Rosse's (correct spelling?) was a gift bought from USA by Xun'an. Yay, free stuff. Awesome as always. Imma such a cheapo, haha. Well, can't help being a cheapo. :/

The snack was kinda, hmm, too sweet. But still it tastes nice. Even though I am a cheapo, I do share and care okay. After giving some to my peeps, and lecturer, the rest were mine. ROARR.

By the way, we have such a cute tutor, Mrs. Kee. She can just sit at our table and side track with us along, can talk everything except Employment Law. She is just too damn awesome. Love this lady man. So one peanut butter cup for her. ^^v.

So the rest are all mine! MINE! *OM NOM NOM NOM* an hour later, the remaining (5 or 6 cups?) are gone.

The effect:


An hour later, I was on sugar rush. Serve me right, eat too much. Sugar level overdose.

What Happened:
I talk more than usual, higher than usual, hornier than usual. All the ********* were spewing from my mouth. (Definitely not all the vulgar terms but have to be censored for the sake of underage readers). We were literally crazy for the whole day. Crashing into empty classes to do project, even into empty lecture hall   doing some real stupid shit. Well, these will be the memories, before we left school. Dear future Zay Linn, one day, you will look back to this and you will be having a good time laughing at your past self's stupidity and awesomeness. ;)
This did not stopped even when I was in DSD for some stuff. Normally, I would not talk to the strangers for first ten minutes but heck the moment I met them, I was talking, oh, crapping. Poor new friends. :X And, I also act like young child in front of Ms. Kim. Feel so bad sia. :X

The After Effect
Yours truly believe that his sugar rush has yet to subside. He is still getting reckless. And probably because of NYAA interview taking place tomorrow. Oh dear self, please be on your best damn behavior. Just be yourself tomorrow.

In the meantime, I shall prepare for interview tomorrow. Good Luck self, all the best for tomorrow. :)

In the meantime, let's enhance the atmosphere with FUN song. You guess it right, We are Young.

So lets set the world on "fire" while the night is young.

Signing Off.

Buddham Saranam Gachcahmi

Buddham Saranam Gachcahmi - In Buddha, I seek refuge

Dhaman Saranam Gachcahmi - In Dharma, I seek refuge

Sangham Saranam Gachcahmi - In Sangha, I seek refuge.

As a devoted Buddhist, yours truly would always chant this three verses when ever I am available. This three verses are no sutta or mantra to protect myself from harm, blessed with wealth or healthy. The three verses are the most basic foundation of Theravada Buddhism. Buddha - The Enlightened One, Dharma - The Universal Truth and Sangha - The Monks. They are most probably known as Three Gems.

Speak of Theravada Buddhism, there are various forms of Buddhisms, just like any other religions. Theravada was the oldest of all. Theravada Buddhism comprises of teachings of Lord Buddha, Four Noble Truth and Eight foldpaths. Theravadin Buddhists believes in Karma, the Cause and Effect. With one ultimate to achieve, Nirvana.

After Lord Buddha enters Nirvana, Buddhism was split into various paths such as Mahayana, Vijrayana and many more. New main characters other than Lord Buddha were introduced. Many Bodhisattva were integrated into Mahayana Buddhism whom were never existed in Theravadin Buddhism. One famous Bodhisattva would be Avalokitesvara Bothisattva,  commonly known to all as Guan Yin Fu Sa, or Goddess of Mercy. 

Buddhism is undeniably sophisticated religion in the worlds. The more I research I did, the more confused I get. True story. Maybe I should apply Lord Buddha's saying, Ignorance is Bliss. Don't believe me, Google and see for yourself.

There is no rights or wrongs in following Theravada or Mahayana or any other forms of Buddhism. All forms of Buddhisms have one common characteristic, COMPASSION TOWARDS EVERY SENTIENT BEINGS. That's the concept applied throughout the whole Buddhisms. 

There is no such thing as which religion is the best in the world. Each religion has its positive points and negative points too. As long as we learn to be able to tolerate each other's different, the world will be a better place to live in. A much better place it will be. What is the point of fighting, killing in the name of "religion". No God, Buddha, Allah, Vishnu or Guan Yin will accept this extremism.

Oh yea, by the way, yours truly is a devoted Theravada Buddhist. I too, striving to achieve internal peace and the path to nirvana one day. Not in this life but maybe in some existence in future lives to come. Somewhere in Sansara (cycles of rebirths and death).  :) 

Let's close this with three roar of Sadhus (Good Indeed, Good Indeed, Good Indeed). 

Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu. 

That's all for today folks, have a great day ahead.

Signing Off.

Buddhism has the characteristics of what would be expected in a cosmic religion for the future: It transcends a personal God, avoids dogmas and theology; it covers both the natural and spritual; and it is based on a religious sense aspiring from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual, as a meaningful unity. -Albert Einstein

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My Down Moment

Everyone has their down moments too. For guys, hmm, let us call it mood swing.

Today yours truly had a very bad mood swing. Serious mood swing I tell you man. It is like the most serious mood swing ever in 2012.

The cause:

Well, first would be trusting a friend that I am as equally as important to him, but heck, it was a total mistake. Yours truly have this asshole friend who would come and look for me every time his best friend or gay friend or whatsoever friend could not give him a satisfying answer. So I was the last person he would think of whenever he could not get the answer he wanted. I am the last resort eh? Sad enough?

Did I mention about his broke up? I made sure I always set aside some times for him, regardless of what happened. Making time for him to pour his heart out. To the extent that even picking up the heartbreaking calls as early as 3 AM and 5 AM in the morning. Imagine if he called someone else, he would be cursed and scolded. I made sure I was there for him during his darkest hours.

But, what did I received in return. I am the last resort. He overcame the shits he faced, I was threw aside again. I feel like a used toilet paper. Oh well. I will never forget the way he treated me. Karma is there man.

My lovely bimbo always scolded me for being taken advantage easily. Haha, should have listen her advice. She is the one in a million friend that I could talk my problems. She knows me too well, hor, PMX, don't you agree?. ;) *I dedicated this part to you hor, later don't kpkb say I don't dedicated to you. MEOW*

Second part, I felt damn sad about the entire incident that I wanted to talk to my best friend, I really needed a listening ear at that time. He simply refused my requests. Sad right. I was hoping he would ask if I was alright at least, but nah. Forget it. Oh well. 

I wanted to ask another close bro of mine to hear me talk but I reluctant to do so. Probably because he was with his friends and I don't wanna ruin his moods. I cared too much about others' feelings.

No wonder I was taken advantage of my kindness. But still, I rather lose a bet than losing a friend. That's the type of person I am. I emphasized too much on friendship and TA DA! I am the one who get hurt in the end.

Thinking of all these made my mood down for the whole day. Physically tired, mentally exhausted and well, lost the mood. The happy, cheerful and optimistic Zay Linn was gone for the whole day.

So I sat at the park, staring at the moon aimlessly. No reason. And I text my woman in white, chao ah lian to talk. My female best friend and she always will be. After half an hour long of usual chatting, quarreling like usual, calling each other name as predicted, my mood was back thanks to her. My bitch, an awesome one indeed. Yours truly is really lucky and fortunate enough to have a friend like her. 

As I stared at the moon and endless sky, well, I realised my problems are so tiny, so small. As usual. At the end of the day, I have to say Hakuna Matata. Yours truly can't afford to bring this mood to another day. Life is full of awesomeness. I have yet to live my life to the fullest. I have future ahead of me, just like any of you readers. So would you rather carry the problems of yesterday to a new day and live your life full of hatred, anger and sadness or would you rather embrace tomorrow with no sorrow, nor regret and leaving all the pains behind, learning from our mistakes? My answer is obvious, isn't it. ;)

Hakuna Matata!

Alright, have a great day ahead folks.

Signing Off.