A tranquil evening, last one of the year

Yours truly felt tired, emotional for no particular reason. I retreat from Daiko clubroom to outside, wanting to be alone for a while.

As I sat at a remote corner of study zone, allowing my thoughts to run wild. Oh well, can't help but letting it run wild instead of surpressing negative thoughts. At least, it helped, lightened my heavy heart for a brief.

While I allowing my thoughts to travel, I have come to notice how peaceful the surrounding was. It was a typical afternoon but I have failed to realise how beautiful it was.

A cool breeze accompanied by calling of animals; crickets chriping, birds flying under the clear vivid weather. There was no dark clouds, no sign of raining. It was the tranquility that I been missing over years. The last time was five or six years ago when yours truly was still in Burma. I felt like I was in embrace of the nature. Alright, the last time I was with nature was in October, during Mount Kinabalu trekking. But as we were struggling to reach the destination, I have only a while to enjoy the touch of nature. Oh, I sure miss trekking at Mount KK with my friends. Many memories.

Today, 2011 has given me yet another awesome experience. Brief but tranquil. Thank you 2011, for being the best year of being human.

Mount Kinabalu,view from atop, simply priceless

With this, I have take nothing but photographs, leave nothing but foot prints, bring nothing but memories from 2011.
As a chapter closes, a new chapter of life begins. Once again, farewell 2011.

~ FIN ~

2011, a big farewell!

Today marks the end of a fabulous year, 2011. You know, I still can remember the events that took place in 2011 vividly. And things seemed like they took place not long ago, it seems like it all happened yesterday, or a few days before.

Time flies really fast. Faster than the speed of light. And a circle of life comes to an end. A new circle of life is waiting to be birthed in a few hours time.

2011, it has been an eventful year. Operation Shangri-La, Mount Kota Kinabalu expedition trip, SP Daiko Annual Concert- Summer Beat 2011 and many more. This year had given me vast opportunities and opened the doors beyond imaginations. I have experienced various things beyond the borders. On top of that, I met many friends who became a part of my life whom added vibrant colors to my tarnished art piece. The best part of the year. Fantastic much.

There may be hiccups along the journey of 2011, but hey, we can't avoid them. There might be moments of up's and down's but we have to accept them and continue with life. They are inevitable obstacles that we have to face if we want to move on with life.

2011, it was  prodigious  beyond any describable words. I could not find the right word to depict how  stupendous  it has been.

I have survived the unseen challenges, uncertainties, difficulties that life has bombarded at me. And more are awaiting in 2012, I won't know if I can overcome the shits like how I survived in 2011. One thing for sure, I can make it out alive as long as my friends and beloved ones are there. Alright, 2012, I am ready, I hereby declare that I accept the uncertainties you are about to hurl at me. Bring it on, baby.

2012, will the world really end like what the Mayan civilization predicted over millenniums ago. Will the earth hit by a catastrophe, will the world meet its fateful end or an apocalypse will take place? I am not sure, for I am no creator nor supreme being that know and decide the fate of the mankind. However, I have survived countless "end of the world" predicted by hard core believers. And I am sure, pretty sure, that no Gods would be cruel enough to end the world so soon, for human civilization has yet to reach its peak. And the bible did not mention end of the world on 2012. There is still bits and pieces of humanity, kindness, benevolence around the world. Even if the world will really end we have to cherish the moments we have.

What else could I say? 2011, it has been an year with many memoirs. What more I could ask for? With this last post of the year, I bit you a warm farewell to you. And 2012, I welcome you with open arms.

Thank you 2011, for many wondrous memories. And HAPPY NEW YEAR. 

Habits

Habit, what is habit? Is this something we do regularly? With our without us knowing. Habit is defined as an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary. 

So, everyone has their own habit, I am 100% sure of it. Bathing at midnight, screaming when you get excited, eating at unearthly hour and biting your finger nails. They are all habits. And they revolve around us everyday. 

Good and Bad Habits

In this context, habits formed as a result our behaviors. And once it is formed, it is hard to give up. It takes time and humongous effort to let go of undesired habits. Talk about undesired habits, there are two types of habits. Good and Bad, simple as that.

Bad habits, they are of course undesirable, isn't it. Imagine you have the habit of biting your toes frequently. And what happen if you bite your toes in public as you can't stop yourself? Better get a grocery bag to cover your face when you go back home because you are gonna be the laughing stock of the people. 

Grocery bag to cover your face. ROAR

 And your image gonna be ruined. Do you want that to happen to you? 

Of course, not all habits are bad. Studying, revising regularly, saving a penny or two everyday or jogging regularly, they are the habits that will help us in some ways.

An example of good habit

Habits can be contagious sometimes. For example, yours truly have a friend who would go "MEOW" every times she feels embarrassed. And thanks to that friend, I also grew a habit of Meow-ing for no reason. I wouldn't say it is a good or bad habit but it gets irritating over times when I meow for no specific reason over and over again. Contagious isn't it, my friend's meow-ism?

We humans are like monkeys, we see what other people do and we will do the same. Monkey see, Monkey do, I wonder if that phrase was created as a result.

Monkey see, monkey do. (Just an example)

Habits, they are inevitable parts of human behaviors. And we can't prevent them from happening, and we never will succeed in preventing them from happening. However, we can stop the habits that are undesirable. Of course, we can't stop them with a hocus-focus or with a finger snap. It takes time, may be a week, or a month, or more. But with determination, we sure can stop the undesirable habits. What important the most is mind over matter.

That's all folks. 

(Why am I writing such a topic? Haha, free expression, just feel like writing, that's it.)

Dream

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.~


Everyone has a right to dream, doesn't it? Let us take a look a Susan Boyle. She dreamed a dream, to be a singer. And her dream came true. From a humble village woman to an internationally recognized singer. Isn't it amazing? And this is the power of dream. Everyone was being cynical of her the moment she stepped onto the stage, but, the moment she started singing, guess what happened? THE AUDIENCE, THE JUDGES, EVEN SIMON COWELL, THE KING OF ALL INSULTS, WAS SPEECHLESS. EVERYONE WENT WOW. 


It all happened because she dared to dream. And her dream came true. The result was beyond expectation, simply amazing, heartwarming. I myself has touched, so deeply that tears began to roll down.


We too, have a right to dream. It is the matter of how to going to actualize our dreams. If we believe in our dreams firmly, we sure too, like Susan will have our dreams come true. 


No matter how our dreams were torn apart, we still must have a dream. We should never lose faith in the dreams that we believe in.  One should not lose hope no matter how bad the situation is. And miracles do happen for those who persevere.


And a miracle was created for Susan Boyle. Her dream came true. It is up to us to make the miracle happen. 

With that, I dreamed a dream.

Signing off. Good night world.

There is this guy that I hate like hell. And he's a 

Well, and I hate this RETARD so much that I get 

even when that person name came across my mind.

And worst of all, he acts like an 

I feel like  when I think of that name.

BUT,  what can I do?

So I only can pretend I 

but in reality, I wish that you

Yours truly.

Reminiscence

Had a movie at GV Jurong Point with Gilbert and Yee Leng. Alvin and the Chipmunks 3. It was an adventurous yet hilarious movie, I must say. I was totally immersed in the movie that yours truly felt like he was being brought back 10 years younger.

Yeeleng has a bad cough. Oh dear, hope she recovers soon.

The movie ended about 9. Not wanting to go home early, we ended up chatting, talking craps. I never had a long chat with them for a decade. Time flies uh. It was an enjoyable chat, I enjoyed myself throughout.

Along the chat, I realised I miss my secondary school days deeply. And I always used to think that secondary school days are the worst years of life. Being outcast by class, being made fun of and always being made a fool by classmates. And how I became attached to class at secondary 4. How I became good friends with many people.

People attitudes towards me changed at the end of secondary 4. I made good friends with many people. They became a part of me. A fine example, one asshole always bullied, disturbed and made fun of me, surprisingly, unimaginably became one of my best buddies. Things turned out for a better isn't it? Sorry Gilbert, no offense bro.

It is because of all the bad experiences that shaped me to who I am today. I guessed I changed a lot. I meant it. From a guy who always kept his mouth shut turned into a outspoken person, truly surprising. And this made me treasure my friends more.

Oh, we talked things beside secondary school days. Relationships, friends, bitches, assholes, KARMA (I wonder how Yeeleng and Gilbert came upon this term, by fluke I assume). It was a heartwarming chat nevertheless.  Brought back many memories.

Miss those old times, I wonder if we will be given another chance to be young again, nah, impossible.

It good to be young, isn't it? So carefree and worry-free.

8 Little Children

This is a story of 8 children. They lived in harmony and happily until unknown situations kicked in. This resulted in the children being splited up. One has separated his wings and going to migrate to another place. One ran away from responsibility. One is occupied with load of work. Of course, it not easy to be an architect. One giving up in what he believed in, losing faith. Guess who is it? One is busy with I don't know what. One is occupied with work. Well, not that bad. There is still 2 little children trying to keep the house under control. But how will they do it since the 8 little children are not together like they did before. How are the little children going to do? Is there gonna be a happily ever after or happily never after ending? No one knows.

Midnight Traveller

I left Po Heng's house about an hour ago. After wandering Nexmall with John, I boarded the train bound to send me home. And it is passed eleven. Time flew fast, wasn't it? As yours truly stepped into train, I actually saw things that I have not notice much before. There are all sort of life boarding the train, and its especially crowded even at this timing. I guess it is because of the festive season. Well, who knows? I stood in the train wishing someone would offer me a seat, impossible. In front of me is this couple drawing, sketching on a piece of paper with a humongous pencil. I swear, it is bigger than an African penis I saw on porn. Oops, ok, which guy is holy enough not to watch porn? And come on man, they are holding it like giving it a hand job. Yucks. On my left is this two guys, who seem older than me by a few years. I guess they just booked out of camp. Hmm, I assumed NS men booked out usually wear army suit, but this two were wearing some casual attire, long sleeved shirt, businessman pants, leather shoes, quite formal uh. And the guy standing next to me gave me a brotherly look. I hate to admit it, I don't mind having an older brother like the guy next to me. Imagine, if I have a brother, it will be good to share my problems and someone to talk to. There is a pretty young and gorgeous girl standing next to me. She look quite innocent. Ok maybe not. I don't have a right to judge people by their appearance. I wonder what will happen if she see me writting. OUCH! And there is this retard playing music in the train like he's own the train. Come on, be considerate bitch. Grrh! Of course, these are not the only things that I saw. Couple kissing, girls chatting, children giggling, some listening to music, shutting door to outside world and immersing in the comfort of music temporarily. There are people heading home from work, finished shopping for Christmas, playing with their I-products. Some look worn, some looked excited while some are deep in thoughts. A penny for their thought? Heh, impossible. Well, we (commuters including me) are from different walks of life. We have one thing in common. That is, we must learn to live with the challenges that being bombarded by life. Our victory depends on how we see the problems and how we solve them. Are you also one of us, embracing the challenges and fighting to survive in life. Don't fear, you are not alone. You never were. As I finished, the west bound train came to an halt at the station where my home is. That's all folk, have a good night.

Procrastination - I will tell you the definition later

I will start doing my project next day. Next day comes, it's still early, I will start on it later. And it goes on and on.


Does this ever happened to you? I guess it does, isn't it? Because we humans are truly champions of procrastination. OK! Not all, but majority are. Yours truly as well, I love to procrastination. Don't ask me why, I just love to. I guess I was born with it? I assume procrastination is a part of human unconsciousness. Not really.

It has been two weeks since beginning of December holidays. And I have yet to touch my project, even though there are numerous meetings and emails spamming my inbox.

And, I have been promising myself profusely that I shall start my works as soon as possible. But I failed. Well, I need to start real soon. And I meant it this time. However, it a question of defining the meaning soon.

Alright, procrastinate less, and let's start working.

If you are a procrastinator, you are normal human. :)

I want to laugh with you when you laugh
When you are happy, I want to be happy with you
When it's hard on you, I want to share your burden
When you are in pain, I want to cry with you

That's what a friend is.
(Ashiya Mizuki, Hana Kimi)

Don't you find it true. I think it is quite true. I want to be that kind of friend, sharing my friend burden, cheering him up, making him feel better. But I seemed to fail to do so. Instead, I made things worse. That's what I assumed. I failed to put a smile on his face. Things were not like what they were used to be.

Thinking about it make me sad, and upset, and, want to cry. But no tears could roll down, sad isn't it? I always felt unappreciated and seemed like an extra in his eyes.

But if I think about it, should I move on with life like what my friends suggested. But I tried to, and I can't bear to leave my friends alone. I hate to do so. That's what makes things even harder for me. Sigh!

BUT, look on the bright side, there are people that willing to share my burden. Stepping out and giving me a good listening ear, advice, giving me a shoulder to cry on. I felt really blessed. Having friends staying by my side, making sure that I am alright. Showing me concern. If felt good isn't it. Having this kind of friends cheering you up in person or online, I find it really touching. Felt really good.


"u know
sometimes i think of what u told me
after u talk to (name)
it helps really, thanks



that the words u tell me help me through some tough times
when the thoughts of not able to go flood into my mind


thats why it pains me to see your status on FB"

A friend just told me this, and guess what, it really helped me to bring up my mood instantly. I never feel so good. It's like I felt really appreciated. Though a simple words, but it made an impact on him. Touched. And I meant it. Not a love confession but still, I am glad. That there are still friends out there who appreciate me.

You know, I felt much better, and never felt so good before. His words sure made an impact on me too. Of course, a greater one. I never regretted signing up for Mount Kinabalu trip and meeting an awesome friend. I am glad, more than glad that I went for this trip.

I may not know bros code or whatsoever codes, but I know one thing. I can rely on my them when I am down, that's for sure. And I thank God for allowing me to meet friends like them.

2012 is coming. And, of course, I won't have to worry about facing uncertainties and challenges along. Knowing that my friends will be there to rescue me from dark along the way.

I want to laugh with you when you laugh
When you are happy, I want to be happy with you
When it's hard on you, I want to share your burden
When you are in pain, I want to cry with you


That's what a friend is, right? 

Signing off.

2011, Beginning of an End!

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle rocks~ 

Don't you hear them quite a number of time? Be it in a shopping mall, along the stretch of Orchard Road or in a restaurant. Christmas is coming. 

Why, it's 5 more days to Christmas. 

Oh, I am excited, so excited.

What I want for Christmas?

An I-Touch? Will someone give me one for Christmas? Jokes, I am asking for impossible. Nothing is impossible, but, this wish is beyond any possibility. It will be a miracle if I received one. Heh!

Talk about which, did I enjoyed 2011? Yes, I did. I definitely did enjoyed myself. In fact, 2011 is the best year of being human. 

2011 is going to be over soon, 2012 is near. The end is near, will we be wiped out like what the Mayan civilization predicted or will we be hit by apocalypse? No one know for sure, but I have survived many "end of the world".

Now, I am thinking, should I stay or should I leave? The reason I staying is because of friends, the bonds with everyone. The reason I want to leave is, I have, in fact, beginning to give up on it. Because of friends that I am holding back. 

Sometimes, I blame myself for being so attracted to friends and unable to bear to to leave them. That's my weakness.

Anyway, let not talk about it anymore, lets bring in the spirit of Christmas.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE~